a pray without a hope

Dear Lord
I could not find a way to talk to you in a descent manner
I try to reach you everywhere
in every corner of my heart
between my cell tissue
and my heart beats
Lord, its hard for me praying without asking
I would try my best doing this pray without ask a single hope
Just to empty my chest from all the pain
agony
doubt
sorrow
because I know You hear
my 20th day before christmas
I am loosing perspective of my life
I love this man very much
he said he loves me but he does not care about me
if he does, he does not want to make an effort of contacting me
its hurt
its hurt to see my mail box empty
no reply from him
i just wanna a very simple thing like cindy hi hello how are u
but he never cares about that